In hindsight, I've diagnosed my childhood self with a mild form of OCD. Before I went to bed, I would always find myself straightening things. I would lay in bed for a while, noticing an unfolded t-shirt on a chair, and would impulsively get up to fold it. I had my reasons though. I didn’t really care if the shirt was folded, that would be silly. I would dream up a scenario where a bad person would break into my home while I was sleeping. He would look around, and be ready to leave with just my cash, but turning back and seeing an unfolded Looney Toons t-shirt, he would be annoyed, pushing him over the top turning what would have been a mere a burglary into a home invasion/homicide. Or maybe a more sadistic intruder would kill one member of my family for each misplaced shoe. My plan had always been to pretend to be asleep, even if I noticed the burglar. I still think this is the best idea. Ignore him and he will go away.
Yes, I have grown out of this. Now I lay in bed for a few minutes thinking "did I brush my teeth well enough...probably not, let me give it another go." and "Oh no, I didn't floss. Its okay though, most people don't floss every day. Yes, but many of those people have gum disease." Sometimes it's "Did I lock all of the doors...I think I did, but maybe I didn't." This inevitably leads to me getting out of bed several times before finally settling down and falling asleep. At least I'm no longer primarily concerned with murder if I don't do certain things just right...now dental diseases are my major motivation.
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